Last Sunday while at work (the yogurt shop), I had the Christmas music channel on; blasting actually. It was a fairly slow day and when the shop was empty, I was singing at the top of my lungs. And then, one song came on and it almost brought me to tears. Brenda Lee’s Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree.
Picture this: young me (with a short bowl cut hair-do), bopping around, Christmas decorations in hand. My sister and I both having a sugar high after consuming at least one serving of hot chocolate, in our matching Santa shaped mugs. My mom would let us decorate the tree and our home, just the way we wanted, while this record played in the background. I loved with all my heart the night my mom would let us stay up late to decorate. She’d also let us choose one string of lights to hang in our bedrooms, but only for the month of December… not a single day later. I never understood why until the following year came and I’d be just as excited.
Fast forward to now: this is the first year that as a family we haven’t picked out our tree together and decorated it. And I must admit, that a little piece of me is missing this holiday season. The beau and I have opted out of having a tree in our apartment, another first for me. We’re both broke and don’t want to put it up now if it’s just going to come down in a couple of days. Instead, we are going to hang a couple of ornaments on the giving tree and light that up each evening as we would a tree.
It’s funny what memories a song could bring back to life, especially during the holidays. I believed, and far longer than most children and I have my mom to thank. I don’t look back and question why she lied to me during those years of having a wild imagination, I think ahead and how I can’t wait to one day do the same for my child. Those memories are what I love looking back on now that the excitement of having all those gifts under the tree has subsided.
Tomorrow the beau and I are making a trip down to NYC to see the all that the city has to offer this time of the year. This is something I’ve never done before and actually have begged to do in the past. When the beau suggested it months ago out of the blue, I almost cried right then and there for being so happy that we’re both valuing experiences over things. We’re beginning to make our own memories this holiday season.